What's great?

2010-07-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

Alright,from now on this blog will be for keepsake and for me(and others) to laugh at a few years down the road.

Imma start a new blog.

2010-01-18T00:15:00.001+08:00

I'm alive guys.
Been more into tumblr recently.
It's all good.

2009-11-17T03:12:00.001+08:00

Fucking sorry for not joining you guys at zirca.
I needed...a break.
Maybe i'm trying not to be someone i'm not.

2009-10-27T03:10:00.002+08:00

I NEED TO FUCKING ORGANISE MYSELF.
FUCKING.

2009-10-19T01:40:00.002+08:00

Scschool's fucking in,urgh.
must take it in my stride!
study hard,play hard,save up hard!
don't know if i'll do it but at least i intended to if i didn't.
another 8 weeks then it'll be 2 weeks holidays.
EVERYTHING WILL PASS IN A BLINK OF AN EYE YES IT WILL!like how 1st sem passed so quickly.

I'm beginning to feel fucked up again.Urgh

2009-10-15T03:20:00.001+08:00

I have a serious problem of always not being able to say whats on my mind.Urgh.

2009-10-15T03:05:00.002+08:00

Today,hit town and finally collected my long-awaited macbeth's.
Gave Hyona a Macbeth sticker(got money also cannot buy one know) and lanyard.
YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO AH HYONA COME OCT31ST=)
After that was Zul's birthday lepak session at Clem.
Good times,good times.

Today i realised a whole lot of shit.
Shit happens,really.

2009-10-08T16:31:00.003+08:00

Where did my 2.2k go to?
AH regret regret.
Could have spent it on much much better stuff.
Urghhhh..........
The makeover isn't complete.

2009-09-30T01:42:00.001+08:00

My head is fucking me up urgh.
Go away fucking headache.

This week has been pretty pleasant so far.
Totally better mood than last week.
Fuck it mode,yeah?

2009-08-31T03:54:00.002+08:00

1)Settle down,stop thinking bout shit,get a freaking job,do anything i've been planning to do.

2009-08-13T01:45:00.003+08:00

I guess i better set my priorities,

1)Study for exams,pass exams.
2)Get a job for maximum a month.
3)Get more clothes.
4)Get more shoes.
5)Fucking slim down.

Those are my priorities.
Till then,my tumblr is preferred.

Ck's secret.
Heh,goodbye.

2009-08-06T00:06:00.002+08:00

Whats that unknown thing i've been seeking?
I feel,lost&aimless.

Afterall,i am only human,and humans need love.

2009-07-24T01:37:00.003+08:00

Damn i have the balls for labret.
But it is such a fuss to take care of.....
Tumblr strictly for close friends.

2009-07-22T00:13:00.002+08:00

i will probably stop this blog soon.
Or just get a new one.
Checklist:

1)Create tumblr to vent all my shit,and only close friends will be given link.
2)Pierce labret(lip)by friday.
3)Go RP gig and mosh.
4)Get a part-part-part time job.
5)Save up,get shoes,tees,mp3,new phone.
6)FUCK FUHEVA.

2009-07-20T02:23:00.001+08:00

Now i know why.
It has always been my thinking.
Life has been good to me,
But i'm not sure how i have been to life.

Come on Ck,you gotta be better.

2009-07-07T00:45:00.002+08:00

Weekend was pretty much a blast.
I love my friends.
They're the ones i trust.
I would die for them,probably.
Class bbq,followed by Hyona's crazy chalet.
Happy Birthday Hyona!

It's back to school now,and i'm glad i'm starting to at least pay a little attention.
Retests next week,try my best.
End Sem exams must really work hard.
I wanna enjoy my holidays guilt-free.

I need to organise my life.

I need to get drunk and forget everything.

\m/

2009-06-27T15:28:00.002+08:00

Friday was fun.
Nothing makes my day better than having some sheeeeesha.
YAY.
Melonmint somemore.
Sheesha got me over the death of MJ.
HAHA.
Clarke Quay after that,
Supposed to be drinking but some dickless poser Frankestein-ish faggot lost his dick.
That left me Fam Hyona Qinxin.
Slack Slack Lepak Lepak
2am go home sleep.
HANG OUT SOON OKAY
Bye.

2009-06-25T16:23:00.003+08:00

I feel,

Lousy,Pathetic,Useless,Disappointed,Confidence-less,Confused,Jaded,Lazy,Lost,Mind-Fucked,Bad,Insecure,Aimless,Indecisive.

2009-06-24T02:46:00.002+08:00

But you're patient.
Because you love her,
You're willing to wait,
And see if she'll change.
But deep inside,
You know it's always gonna be the same.
You're not special anymore.
Not who you thought you were,
Never what you thought you could be for her.
You're a pathetic piece of shit.

2009-06-16T02:19:00.003+08:00

KL was pretty good.
Smokes were cheap,Sheesha was great,Stuff were cheap.
But i didnt call Mum while i was there.
Buddy's phone ran low,shit.
Didnt buy phonecard,double whammy.
I'm such a bad son.
Okay,from now i'll be a better son okay.
Promise.
Promise MUM!

Bought Cheap Monday's.
Wooooots.

Now that i'm back from KL,
Let loose,
Had a good time,
Forget the now forgotten,
It's time for a change.
A change for the better.
No smokes,no fattening food,slim down,no splurging.
(I didn't say no sheesha)
Semester 1,Term 2,
A new me in store.
Yes,New.
Me.

2009-06-12T16:21:00.002+08:00

Going KL in about......2 and a half hours time.
Take care Singaporeans.

It's you i'll sorely miss......

2009-06-06T18:02:00.003+08:00

100th post.
Nothing to celebrate,unfortunately.
Common Test next week,followed ny KL trip.
Where i shall let myself loose.
One last hurrah.

I've never felt the way i feel when i'm with you.
You're special,really special.
Unfortunately,....
I dont know how to explain this.

This sucks.
Why did things have to turn out like this?
I guess it's all my fault.
But i really regret anything that i did to cause this.
Do i deserve another chance?

Maybe i should let go.
Will i be able to?
Remains to be seen.

Henceforth,Fuck Life.

2009-05-27T22:31:00.002+08:00

Emery-The Secret

On the way to grey
I could hardly wait
To see you again
To feel your hands
Covering me
Till the storm is done
What seemed to be the end
Was not the end at all

When I hear the rain
Should I be afraid?
For my, for my
For my... life

Why do you look at me that way?
I told you that I was too busy to see you
I would never keep a secret from you
From you
From you

Is it over?
I am fine
Thank you dearly
For your time
I'll be leaving
Don't you cry
I'll be back soon
At least I'll try
Can't you see
There is no time to think
Selfishly
Yesterday's gone
Tomorrow's here
Can't turn back now
I won't quit
I still love you
I swear,I always will
I always will
I always will

This song pretty much sums up my mood now.

Till i post again.

2009-05-20T14:05:00.001+08:00

Blah Blah Blah

2009-05-14T00:34:00.003+08:00

Here i am.

New Divide,Linkin Park's new song,coming out May 18th.
Can't wait.

Tomorrow soccer at NP.
Gonna play f*cking well.

Doing pretty fine so far.
I really need to think less.

Like always,too much thinking.
Its making me insecure.

2009-05-05T21:30:00.001+08:00

Just an empty post.

You are so damn cute to me.

2009-05-05T01:58:00.002+08:00

It's 2am now.
School's at 8am tomorrow.
I have to wake up at 6am.
I think i'm done for.

I've never felt like this before.

2009-05-05T00:00:00.004+08:00

Oh oh oh oh.
What the hell is happening.

I love the way you smile when i talk to you.

2009-05-03T23:53:00.001+08:00

Should've known better.
Stupid,me.

2009-05-02T15:22:00.002+08:00

I 'm in love with sheesha.
Perfect to chill with.
Mothaf*ckin good sheesha last night at Sahara bar.
With the perfect people around too.
Didn't feel very good though....
Chill more often okay guys.
Love you guys.
And everybody else who deserves to be loved.
Coz' life is dull without love.

2009-04-27T02:52:00.003+08:00

Hop night sucks.
But i went pretty crazy.
Ch**bye complainers,damn vixens.

I need sheesha soon.
F**king soon.
Maybe a pack of smokes will keep my crave at bay.
F**king aimless life.
I don't know what to do if i don't get into soccer.

School's not bad.
New mates are fun.
Working hard in modules.
Redemption.

2009-04-19T07:07:00.003+08:00

The last time i will be posting at 7.08am in a while.
The last time i will be downstairs playing murderer with my bestest friends in a while.
The last time i can stay out till 7 in the morning in a while.
The last time hanging out like tomorrow gonna be just another day in a while.
The last time i can go out of the house at like 11pm.
The last time i can spend today without having to worry bout tomorrow.

Sheesha at Haji lane followed by soccer match viewing at favourite kopitiam.
Even played soccer after that.
The best fun i've had in awhile....
Played murderer under block when it rained.
9 people.
Pure fun.

The past 6 months have been the best days of my life.
I will never forget the times i had.
Genting,Working,CNY,Gym,
Unforgettable.
I wonder if there are still days like this in life?......

School starts tomorrow.
Excited?Sad?
I don't know man.

Freedom i had for 6 months,gone tomorrow.

2009-04-09T16:42:00.001+08:00

Orientation was fine.
Ciao-ed after lunch.Ha ha.....
RupeeRoom tonight!

2009-03-28T02:49:00.002+08:00

School's in.....23 days!
Orientation=NExt Friday.
Hope i can meet some peeps from ME too.
Already have a few friends in the same course!
Sure to see some familiar faces in campus too,i think.

F**king aimless life recently man.
Wake up.
Survive/Enjoy.
Go to bed.

WTF?

2009-03-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

Bought laptop.
Windows Vista is shit man!
Will use the remaining time i have before school starts to get used to Vista.
Any teachers?

2009-03-17T01:38:00.000+08:00

ROMPIV was serious dope man.
Thinking of going st.james on thursday.
BARCODE.
Anyone?

2009-03-13T00:20:00.003+08:00

ECP was pretty fun.
Nobody had any probs.
Pretty rare,i would say.

My life is getting out of track!
WTF,didn't even have the time to attach a phone to the cord?
My dad asked me to do it,
He ended up doing it himself.
I really think my family has no trust in me getting things done...
Fuck myself,man.
Seriously,fuck myself.
Going out everyday is unhealthy.
Family 1st,man.
FAMILY 1ST!
I swear i will have FAMILY in my mind at all times,from now.

Why is it so hard to wanna treat you well....
Its is even hard to care for you.....
How will anybody even be able to enter your world?
This can't go on....
Sometimes its not a matter of whether you want it or not...
Its whether you have to.
Please,save yourself.

Have the urge to go wild and shout at some people.
Knock some f**king sense into their empty head-bones.

RompIV on sunday.
Let your hair down,buggers.

All for now.

2009-03-05T01:36:00.000+08:00

Genting was uber fun.
No troubles,none.
Pictures some other time.

2009-02-21T15:07:00.003+08:00

I want a job.

May be working next week.
And i hope i am called up by GJH for the IT fair!
I wanna work.
And pay will be....

1)Deposited for my 2B next year.
2)Nokia 5800?Highly unlikely.
3)Bicycle Gaff + Masters.
4)A few pieces of clothings.
5)And hopefully i can save the rest for better uses.

2009-02-21T03:18:00.002+08:00

Not in the mood man.
I wann f**king go Genting and s**** my ass off.
I swear.
Nothing stands in my way.
Ever.

2009-02-19T12:55:00.002+08:00

Endured a f**ked up day.
Glad it ended.
Quite moodless actually.
But nobody will know.
They won't be able to see it.
Next saturday will be great.
Bikeasia 2009.
I'm so going.
And i hope Genting trip with peeps will be successful.
I wanna have a good time and be away from all many troubles.

See y'all.

2009-02-19T01:12:00.002+08:00

CREDIT TO ANGELLA CHOW :D
cheekiat's blog is back !
lalaalalalas~
haha :D:D

2009-02-18T13:14:00.001+08:00

Blah.

2009-02-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Disappointment You are a fun-loving, energetic, and cheerful person. You love adrenaline rushes, and going out at night. You constantly have to be having a great time to feel completely happy. Your biggest fear is not having anything to do, or having a huge disappointment/let down in your life. You hate being sad, and if something in your life suddenly went wrong it would be extremely hard for you to deal with. Just remember that everyone has to deal with hard times. Stay strong, and pretty soon your fun, party life will get right back the way it used to be.
Being Alone
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Commitment
Where Your life is Going
Death
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Other than the fact that i'm least afraid of Death(i'm pretty afraid of it actually),the other facts are ducking true!

2009-02-04T01:10:00.002+08:00

Looks like not saying anything is always the safest thing to do.
People can talk behind my back all they want,i can't do anything about it.
What goes around comes around.
I never regret my decisions,
Even if they're questionable.
Cause regretting them ain't gonna help much.
I know the mistakes i've made,
And i can only move on and out of their shadows.
Where's my real best friend,
Where i can share my troubles with?

Silent screams,ignite the flames.

2009-01-19T02:19:00.002+08:00

If only i've worked harder.
How lazy can one get,
To not study for his O levels.
I wanted to get into Business Studies,
But i didn't work hard enough.
Frankly,i don't deserve it.
All my life the things i want came,
Without me having to do much.
No blaming.
So i thought i didn't have to do much to get into Business Studies.
I'm wrong.
From now on i know i will have to do something myself,
Sacrifice,
Hardship,
Or whatever,
To attain what i want.
There's no free lunch in this world.
Hope i've learnt a lesson.

Are you round the next corner,
Or are you already here?

2009-01-13T12:00:00.000+08:00

L1R4=22.
Fcuk.
Combined Humans=D7
What the fuck?
Printing error isit?
Now where should i fucking go.

2009-01-11T00:47:00.002+08:00

Okay.
16>for O's=Ear piercing.
14>for O's=Lip piercing.
12 for O's=Eyebrow piercing.

Sure anot?

Nah,i'll see how it goes.

Time to face it.

2009-01-07T00:36:00.004+08:00

Seriously,
I'm feeling so helpless.
Its pretty much confirmed(by myself) that 14points for O's is virtually impossible for me.
Nvr study enough la f*ck.
Who to blame?
Me,
Do things that i know i will regret.
F*ck you son.
Where's your guts?
Do you know where your life's going?
Do you know what to do to it?

No.

Then why did you let it go this way?
Its your life.
You lay the path and walk it.
Nobody can do nothing to your life.
Just you.

Ask yourself,
What about your dreams and aspirations?
Your future?
Is it too late to do anything about it?
Never too late?
Certainly hope so.

And when are you gonna pick yourself up from this predicament?
Will you be able to?
Or just continue to be the lazy f*cker that you are?
So lazy that you're not even bothering about the things you treasure and want to treasure?

Wake up,Kiat.
Please wake up.
"Time and Tide wait for no men."

2009-01-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

I can totally picturing myself getting an O'Level cert with 20+points.
And saying,

"Eh Sunan,your cert here"

WAHAHAHAHA.
Fcuking hilarious.

2009-01-05T22:03:00.001+08:00

KNN to results coming out soon.
Seriously i am so bummed up.
Some pilot fcuking crash the bloody plane with our papers please!

Seriously don't feel like nothing man.Fcuk.

2009-01-01T05:39:00.003+08:00

Oh,tell me it's not over!
X'mas and New Year's eve over just like that?
(snaps fingers)
Love the festive moods !
But its over.
Argh.guess i'll have to wait for next year,
Which is a year away lah fcuk!

When will i get my 2B and bike???????

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE.
2009'S HERE.

2008-12-26T04:17:00.003+08:00

X'mas countdown@town was fcuking fun la!
Spraying snow all around!
Everybody became friends.
Wanna hit town this few days man!

2008-12-19T15:14:00.004+08:00

Great,the holidays are about to be over,
which means all the macam2 mat merepeks will have to dye their hair black again,
Small kids,
Go to mama and suck milk,
Juveniles.

Ungreat,the holidays are about to be over,
no holiday mood.
Got holiday mood dun wan to enjoy,
no holiday mood then kpkb.
Kuku.
O level results coming somemore,
fcuk.

Okay,
Enough of those mood spoilers.
Today is....
19th December.
Fast like fcuk lah.
Grad nite seemed like yesterday.
Past 2 months,
Earned about 600bucks from working.
Not enough really.
Well,money is never enough!
Should really be working more,
But imma lazy fcuker.
I wanna go on a holiday,
No $$$.

SAFFC U-18 trial tmrw.
GO!

Things i wanna do before 2009:
1.Go to an underage party,
2.Countdown to 2009,
3.Lose a little weight lah fcuk,
4.Plan every befalling day properly.
5.Just one more pack.

Life's too short to have time to make everything perfect.

2008-12-11T14:44:00.001+08:00

I've been an idiot,really.
My whole life.

Sorta?

2008-12-08T21:32:00.003+08:00

Okay,
I'm gonna post coz i told someone that if she post i post.
And she did,haha.

December3rd-5th.

4E6 Class Chalet.

Durong these 3 days,i went through a roller coaster ride of emotions.
I think in this 3 days i've been anywhere i could possibly have been with my feelings.
Happy,Sad,Angry,etc etc.
Everything.
Basically chalet was fcuking fun,
Including/excluding the part where i got drunk and puked.
First night,
Watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre,
Fun like fuck lah.
Drank and *m**ed into the morning.
Couldn't sleep.
Second day,
Gambled and lost like fcuk,
was kept within the chalet by the rain.
Went for a puff,
And vomited after that.
So,i popped a panadol and got some sleep.
Guess who i woke up to?
Someone who tapped my face asking me to wake up.
Even tell me not coming to chalet somemore.
Make me so sad,
Then surprise me.
But i don't blame you=)
Anyway u brightened my chalet up.
Haha!
Night befalled,
Let my hair loose.
Too loose maybe.
Was sober enough for a walk at Pasir-ris park with Elton though.
But when i got back,thats where it became worse.
Due to some 'happennings',
Drank like nobody business.
And when u do that?
Of coz drunk lah.
Was pretty drunk,
But still could sit outside and chat with the ComebacKings about soccer!
I totally knew was i was saying okay.
Chelsea sucked,etc etc.....
True what.
Then somebody dragged me into the chalet,threw me on the bed,
Next thing i know i was puking.
Then when i opened my eyes,morning already.
Felt so ashamed of myself.
But life goes on,ya know.

Third day,
nothing much,just packed up and left.
Just that i rushed down to work.

December 5th-8th.

Worked at Sintex warehouse sale as a,promoter?
Pretty fun experience.
Made some new friends.

Thats pretty much it.

Sorta out of sorts.

I felt that i let some people down when i got drunk.
Especially you-know-who-you-are.
I'm so sorry girl.
I love you.

When Darkness turns to Light,It Ends Tonight.

2008-11-16T03:12:00.005+08:00

Things i'll never forget in secondary school life.

1.After school makan cum talk cock session with Elton,Jiaqi,Gary,Zhengsheng.All the jokes,all the laughter....
2.The wonderful times we had in Korea,watching Euro 08,all the laughter.....
3.Me and Jiayu looking away to avoid Miss Angeline Lee from catching us asleep....
4.POA chat sessions with my jies......
5.POA chat sessions with Kishore and co....
6.POA chat sessions with bff,Azima....
7.Comeback kings,Yo momma....
8.Sec 1&2 years,going to school together with Peiying and Kimhong.....
9.Walking to school alone,listening to my fav music.....
10.Always joking around,criticising each other,and ending in a burst of laughter....
11.Toilet trips in between lessons with my bros.....
12.PE lessons soccer with Kishore and co.....
13.Those sec 1 years when we just got to know each other...so innocent,no hatred,no conflicts,just harmony.
14.Sec 1,when Kishore Kumarr was so obsessed with Usher's Yeah,that he blasted it in the com lab....
15.Sec 4,during O level practical quarantine time,climbing to the back of the stage,exploring the school while we still had the chance...
16.NCC camps,late night watching Batman Begins and you-know-what-guys-watch....
17.Sec 1 camp,Banana Woman & Banana Man,and me being best camper!
18.Sec 1&2 ,Miss Kelly Lee's F&N lessons,joking around,all the laughter...
19.The infamous 'case',which wrecked my 2008 CNY......
20.After every holiday,commneting on each other's outrageous haircuts!
21.Elton's perky butt while climbing the stairs!
22.Although quite sucky,but Miss Angeline Lee's lessons were a good experience.
23.Basketball during PE/After school.
24.Delicious malay food in school!
25.Western food too!
26.New block....
27.Old block's back corridor...
28.Hall!
29.All my friends,all the teachers.
30.NCC Part D 2008!

Will add more as i think of them.

Forever etched deep down in my heart,never to be forgotten.

2008-11-16T02:56:00.002+08:00

Grad night was last night.
Had alot of fun,
But couldn't bear to part with all my friends.
Love my friends,forever.
All the times we had,
I will never forget.

Forever etched in my heart.

2008-11-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

Grad night is tmrw.
Arghhhh.

2008-11-05T00:44:00.002+08:00

2 papers left.
And it's overrrr.
Dunno if it's a good thing or bad thing.
We shall see.

Urgh.
Feeling so worried right now.
Don't know why.

-Am i treating my parents well enough?
-Will i get my desired results?
-Will i get into Business Studies @ NP?
-Will i be able to see all my friends on a regular basis?
-Her.
-Life after O's seems pretty boring.
-Wad to do to occupy myself?
-My dreams?Is it even possible?

A carefree and worry-free life is what i want,cringe and desire for.
But,its impossible.
No pain=No gain.
No downs=No ups.
Later.

I never want my parents to leave me.Never.
Love you Mum & Dad.
Forever.

2008-10-30T20:58:00.003+08:00

Papers left.

Tmrw:

Biology.
POA 1&2.

Next Week:

Social Studies.
MT 1&2.

Last paper:

Science MCQ,11/11/2008.

And i'm a free man.
For the time being,at least.

Currently mugging for Biology.
POA is pretty gone case.
E-Maths paper2 was today.
Tough paper.
Should be able to pass.
Hope it goes with a little flying colours.

Current Estimation:

English:A2
E-Maths:B3
Humanities:B3
Science:A2
Chinese:C5

L1R4=15.
Required=12
What the f*ck.

Chinese very hopefully B4.
Humans pretty hopefully A2.
Science pretty hopefully A1.
English hopefully A1.

L1R4=11.
Room for error=1.

Chinese most probably=C5.

L1R4=12.

Target met?

Hopefully.

2008-10-27T01:03:00.001+08:00

It's all gonna be over soon.

2008-10-26T00:18:00.005+08:00

2008-10-26T00:18:00.003+08:00

You know this Crush ain't going away.

2008-10-24T10:57:00.000+08:00

Science Practical:Not very confident,but should be able to score.DOWN.
English:Pretty confident,but its always unpredictable.DOWN.
Geography:Would love to have done better,not confident(but its unpredictable too,so i'm hoping.)DOWN.
E-Maths Paper1:Defintely more confident than usual(failures),easy paper but coundn't finish 3 qs.DOWN.

Legend:Orange:High(er than usual) Hopes.
Green:Unpredictable,hoping to end up in the better side.
RED:DONE WITH YOU FREAKING PAPERS.

Can't change yesterday,so absolutely have to mug my face off for the rest of the papers.

Wish me good luck,i'm gonna need it.

To myself:Break a leg,dude.

Freedom is edging ever closer,but will i enjoy it?

2008-10-21T21:31:00.001+08:00

Love Lockdown by Kanye West.

I'm not loving you,
Way I wanted to
What I had to do,
Had to run from you
I'm in love with you
But the vibe is wrong
And that haunted me,
All the way home.

So you never know,
Never never know,
Never know enough,
'Till it's over love.
'Till we lose control,
System overload.
Screaming No No No N-No.

I'm not loving you,
Way I wanted to
See I wanna move,
But can't escape from you.
So I keep it low,
Keep a secret code,
So everybody else don't have to know.

So keep your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Keepin' your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Now keep your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Now keep your love locked down,
You lose.

I'm not lovin' you,
Way I wanted to.
I can't keep my cool,
So I keep it true.
I got something to lose,
So I gotta move,
I can't keep myself,
And still keep you too.
So I keep in mind,
When I'm on my own,
Somewhere far from home,
In the danger zone.
How many times did I take 'fo it finally got through,
You lose,
You lose.
I'm not lovin' you,
Way I wanted to,
See I had to go,
See I had to move.
No more wastin' time,
You can't wait for life.
We're just wastin' time,
Where's the finish line.

So keep your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Keepin' your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Now keep your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Now keep your love locked down,
You lose.

I'm not lovin you,
Way I wanted to,
I bet no one knew,
I got no one new.
I know I said I'm through,
But got love for you.
But I'm not lovin' you,
Way I wanted to
Gotta keep it goin',
Keep the lovin' goin'
Keep it on a roll,
Only God knows,
If i'll be with you,
Baby I'm confused,
You choose,
You choose.

I'm not lovin' you,
The way I wanted to.
Where I wanna go,
I don't need you.
I've been down this road,
Too many times before,
I'm not lovin' you,
Way I wanted to.

So keep your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Keepin' your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Now keep your love locked down,
Your love locked down.
Now keep your love locked down,
You lose,
You lose,
You lose,
You lose,
You Lose.

2008-10-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

Probably my last post before the O's.
Well,not much time left anyway.
Urghh.
Seriously,
I think i'm dead.
Slacked too much throughout the year.
Now i'm staring at the O' levels totally(trying to be pessimistic) unprepared.
All i can do now is absorb 50% of my 100% last minute muggings,
And hope.
Pray too.

Well,i pretty much asked for it.
Now i'm have to salvage myself.

Somebody tell me what i'm good at.

2008-09-30T22:24:00.000+08:00

OMG...
I simply cannot wait for Fifa 09 and PS3!!!
Hope i can use it as my motivation to study.
Hope.

2008-09-28T22:57:00.001+08:00

Basically,
I spent one whole day today at home WITHOUT much studying.
Urghh.
I'm so dead.

Urgh.

2008-09-22T23:52:00.000+08:00

Ah.
O' levels approaching in....27 days.
And i'm not 1 single bit prepared.
Worse still,
I'm not even getting prepared.
Save me!

Things that are currently on my mind,
-Her.
-Leaving Yuhua soon.
-Fear of failing O's.
-What about POA?
-E-MATHS!
-Life after O's.
-Taiwan with sis after O's?
-Which Poly?or,
-Retain!?!
-Bike license?
-$$$
-Love Life.
-Fitness.
-Childhood dreams.(Manchester United)
-And realising them.
-Who stole my bag?
-Friends.
-Fact that i'm gonna leave a few soon.
-Family.
-Pure euphoria of PS3-ing after O's!
-Planning my life properly so i won't be a failure.
-My possible bleak Future.
-Doomsday in 2010?
-Heartz United.

Basically thats what i can think of right now.
Arghhh.
Time is Running Out.
Can i successfully score 13 for O's?
And get into NP Business Studies?
If i do,how about my dream?
My ambition?
Queries.
Need to be answered.
By who,remains to be seen.

Utter Helplessness.
I'm sorta dead meat.
Bye.

2008-09-14T22:27:00.001+08:00

Wouldn't it be great to realise your childhood dream?

2008-06-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

I missed Singapore for 1 week,
Now I'll miss Korea for the rest of my life.
The times i had with my besties,
Late nights watching Euro 08,
Having a good laugh.
Yea.
Unforgettable.
Well,
As i always say,
All things may only happen once in a lifetime.
Cherish.
I'd never forget the times we had.
I hate to know that there may never be another chance where we will be able to enjoy like we did again.
Love my friends.

Well,back to business.
Next big thing:O's.
Bring it on baby.
All study and nothing else now.
Although i'm starting to have a crave...
A crave to do the thing i love to do most...
That gets me all hyped up,
And my adrenaline rushing...
PLAY SOCCER!
Thinking about joining a team by the name Kismis...
A step towards my dream.
My dude Sam's dream too.
Manchester United.
Player.
I know you're freaking laughing now.
It seems impossible.
Ok now at least in the National Team?
That will happen.

Thats for now.
Ciao.

2008-04-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

It seems that looks do matter when it comes to most Singapore girls.
Hows the feeling when you're with you handsome friend,
And a girl walks up and starts talking to your friend,
And it seems like she can't see you.
You're invisible.
Looks won't remain,the heart will.
Now take this phrase,
Burn it,
Mix it in a cup water water and gulp it down please.
Don't regurgitate.
B**hes.

Lo and Behold.
The almighty Singapore,
Land of *****ters.
Seriously,
I don't feel secure in Singapore now.
Its like there are problem waiting to happen.
Just one 5-second look at a *****ter and you're in shit.
WTF?
What has Singapore become?
Shitass Island.
With b***es and *****ters
What a society.

2008-03-12T01:56:00.000+08:00

Yesterday morning at 5.35am,my grandmother departed this world to live in a better place.
She passed away of a heart failure at the age of 77 after breathing difficulties.
It was so sudden.
A little too sudden.

Its not very nice to wake up receiving a piece of news that your one of your loved ones has passed away.
Upon hearing the news,i went to school for 1 hour before deciding that i should see Grandma for one last time.
I left school and raced home,changed,and went down to the funeral.

My two aunties and one uncle (all Grandma's children)
Were in Thailand at the time of her passing.
They immediately booked the 1pm flight back.
Upon reaching the funeral,they broke down.
One of my aunties even said,
"Why did you go when we're away?"
She had teary eyes for the rest of the day.
As for my mother who was working,
She carried on working and came down only at 3.
I'm proud of my mum.
As she actually can work when her mother passed away.
She didn't want to dissapoint her customers.
When my mum went to see Grandma,
I went along as i was afraid my mum would collapse as she is not very well.
Just by standing beside her,
I could feel her sorrow.
I held back my tears.
My mum's face slowly beagn to sadden and she teared.
My mum was always the one who put in more effort to take care of Grandma,
She would go to her house,
Whether it was at Yishun last time or Sengkang now,
From my house in Jurong.
She brought her back to my house as she was afraid that there was nobody around to take care of my grandma.
And my cheeky late Grandma,despite receiving orders from my mum that she cannot take sweet drinks,
Would go downstairs to the convienience store and buy a 1.5L bottle of Carrot Juice,
And hide it deep inside the fridge to prevent my mum from knowing.
My little cousin,3 years old,
Was told that Grandma was 'sleeping'.
But after awhile,he asked why Grandma didn't wake up.
He cried and asked for Grandma to wake up.

Just a mere two weeks ago,i had a family dinner with my aunties and Grandma.
Now,she's no longer in this _____world.
Thats a good thing,Grandma.
You will now be free from frustration and sorrow.
The angels will sing melodies for you.
Leave this world peacefully,Grandma.

As i was 10 years younger than my next older cousin,
I never really spent much time with Grandma.
From the stories my cousin told me just now,
Grandma would go and bring my cousins to her house,
And on the way she would ask my cousins to get anythign they wanted,
And she would pay for them.
As my cousins used to call each other fat,
Grandma developed a saying,
"You yourself fat still call other people fat."

By the time i had grown up,
Grandma was partially deaf and,thus,
We never really could communicate.
I would hug her occasionally,
But i never thought that i would not be able to hug her anymore so soon.
I gave her money when i got pay,
Or when i won form gambling.
That was the least i can do.
I know that Grandma really wants to spend time with me,
But she can't.
I would really have wanted to have a good relationship with Grandma,
But it couldn't happen.
I remembered once when she was staying at my house,
She fell down in the toilet and needed help to get up.
I was at home,
But i was taking a nap at that time.
I am so guilty,
Why did i have to take a nap at that time?
I hate myself for not being able to show you that i'm a fillial grandson,Grandma.

Today,
I will forever remember Grandma,
As a Diamond,
That was unable shine for me but i would still try my best to polish it.
I miss you already,Grandma.
I love you.

In Loving Memory,
Chan Lily
1931-2008

2008-02-17T01:12:00.000+08:00

F*ck my Life.
So,so unfair.

2008-02-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

I can't imagine how boring my life is now.
2008 sucks so far.
It really does.

2008-02-05T18:38:00.000+08:00

Guys,
Bid your farewell to me while you can.
I'm so,so dead.

New Year,New Beginning.

2007-12-29T17:12:00.000+08:00

2007.
The year which i have changed most.
For the better.
And,
I've just turned 15.
Woo.
Wow.
Blah.

2007-12-03T23:06:00.001+08:00

Fcuk.
Realised i didn't blog about the Joyo High School Students.
Well,lets blog bout it now.
There was an exchange program between Japan's Joyo High School and Yuhua Secondary on 22nd Nov.
They came to my school for a while,
About 2 hours,
Then they left to continue their tour of Singapore.
We wanted more time with them,
So we decided to go to the airport to send them of 3 days later.
THE DAY.
25th November
Went to Vivo to get gifts for buddies,with Hui Min.
Left for Airport,
Filled with excitement.
But with excitement comes sadness.
No meh?
Excited before meeting the Jp students,
Sadness after they left.
Well,
Waited for about 20 mins at Terminal 2 till they arrived.
They checked in,
Then we had some interaction time.
Before they left for Japan.
Gave them the gifts,
Took some pictures.
Some of them cried.
And i tried to keep memories in the form of pictures.
Then they passed the checkpoint thingy which we non-ticket holders are not allowed to go beyond.
Its like,so near yet so far.
Waved at them till my hands tired,
And as they slowly walked away,
We all sad sia!
I swear i will go to Japan 1 day to visit them!
Haiz,
Time is too fast man.
Slow Down,Will ya?

2007-11-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yo.
Hi.

Went to Kusu Island today,Had Fun.
Annual trip.
But,
The more fun i have,
The more sian i will get.
Coz there is always a possibility i may not have that much fun again.
Some things only happen once.
Who knows?

So?
Enjoy every bit of it la.
Thats the least you can do.
So you won't look back and say
"Should've enjoyed myself."
And,
Actually,
Thats the most you can do.
Past is past.
You can remember it as a memory,good or bad.
Or by some other way keep it in your mind la.
But thats the most you can do.
Who can change the past?
Nobody.
So,
Make the past memorable la.
So you can tell yourself you've done your best to live your life.

You never know whats in the Ocean TILL you're in the Ocean.
(Don't try to counter this by using some crap like you can see through the water.)
Life's like that too.
You never know how good life can get till you LIVE it.
Or how bad it can get.
Whether its is Gold Coast or Longkang,
Coral Reef or Plastic Bag,
You Decide.

Some things are better remained as a mystery.
And undiscovered.
So you can use your imagination to think how great the thing can be.
Instead of finding out the truth which may disappoint you.
True?
I'll think of a different way to explain it.

Some things will and only happen once.
Dosen't that suck?
Oh it does.

Life's like the vast open sea.
Many things can happen.(not refering to the sea la,but the vast space of the sea.)
So?

END.11.52pm.

2007-11-04T14:51:00.000+08:00

Sorry i have not updated my blog for so long.
I doubt anybody reads it anyway.
Sigh,i feel so sian now.
Its like,
I have nothing to look forward to in life anymore.
After my bro's wedding,
Its like,
I don't wanna think about the future,
And don't wanna think about ANY thing.
Easy to say la.
Try doing it.

2007-10-11T14:03:00.000+08:00

Blah.
In the midst of examinations.
Super long post after it.

END.11.02pm.

2007-10-03T22:18:00.000+08:00

AHHH!

Forgot what i wanted to say.
You can't have it all.
You will only realise what you're not having when you are stuck at something which can be solved,
But will be easier to solve with the thing you're not having.
Still not what i want to say.

About studies wasting life,
Its true.
Primary school wastes half a decade of your life.
Plus Secondary school,
It'll be a decade.

1st decade(10 years old),start of youth.

2nd decade(20 years old),peak of youth.

3rd decade(30 years old),end of youth.

Youth is just a miserable 30 years long,But 10 years have been taken away by education.
I'm not saying its a total waste,
But,It can be shortened right?We don't have to learn so much what.
We're gonna forget some info we learned someday.
Wouldn't that be a waste of time?

Still dosen't feel like what i want to say.

Shucks.

END.10.17pm.

2007-10-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

F-ed up life.
God chose to give me this life,what can i do?
Get on with it la.
What to do?

Studies,as i just came to know,
Are just too much.
Why do we need to learn so much?
8 years of education will do.
Basics is enough.
After all,
We are gonna forget everything.
Right?
Waste of time.
Waste my youth and precious time.

Think of this:
If you just went into a differrent primary school,
Your life would have been totally different.
You would have made a different best friend,
Had different interests,
Hobbies,
Do different things,
And have a different life.

If you made a different best friend,
You would have had different interests,
Hobbies,
And do different things.
And have a different life.

Just another decision would have totally changed your life.
So make decisions wisely,people.

END.9.49pm

2007-10-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

Add-on.
Just remembered what i thought of during the day:
You can't have everything.
Some things will be out of reach.
Well,
Make do with what you have.
Ah,that don't-know-how-to-say thing again.
Hate it.

END.10.52pm.

2007-10-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

Woah.
To me,
My real life is beginning this time next year.
After O'levels,
FREEDOM!
National Service,
Then,
It will be time i put what i've learned so far in life to use.
I will be facing society,
Searching for my identity.
Earning my own money,
Spending my own money at my own free will,
Giving some to my parents,
Investing some in the bank.
That's adulthood.
I'm still in the 'teenager' stage.
Which is ending next year(to me),
Unfolding a new chapter in my life.
Attended a wedding dinner last night,
Made me realise,
Again,
For the umpteen time,
Time and life passes so damn fast.
Its really really short.
Really.
I don't know how to say it here,
But i know it myself.
I'm really trying to cherish my life,
But i find there really not much to cherish.
Dunno why,
I'm growing to hate blogging.
It's like i can't say all i want to say?
I don't know how to.

END.10.53pm.

2007-09-20T20:51:00.001+08:00

Just saw xiaxue's blog.
1st time.
1 word:Dumbfounded.
What's the craze about her blog man?
It's totally normal what.
Just that she has a photoshoot-ed picture of herself.
And some comparisons on PLASTIC(surgery).
And what it can do.
"Wonders"?
To me,ruins.
Her nose is fake,
I'm not criticising her,
But even though it looks nice,
It's FAKE man.
Thats not beauty.
Beauty is NATURAL.
Just my opinion!
Well,nothing i can do if she likes it.
I'm nobody.
Just my opinion.
I just don't understand whats the damn craze about.
And she's actually earning big bucks from a BLOG?
Wassupwitdat?
Just where did the dough come from man.
And i realise,
After watching SHOOT!2,
That she likes to 'criticise' people on her blog.
Again,Wassupwitdat?
Well,i must admit,
It's pretty cool,
Maybe she wants to bring people to her blog?
And bring her $$$.
If xiaxue sees this,
Am i gonna be a victim of her criticism?
Whatever.
If this sparks a war or words,
Bring it on.
Well,
I'm not being arrogant alright.
Just my opinion!
Whatever.
Summing it up,
She's cool,
And un-cool.
This is not all i wanna say though.
ANALYSIS.

END.10.08pm.

2007-09-19T20:39:00.000+08:00

As i'm still a teenager,
Schooling everyday,
My life has been about waking up early to go to school everyday.
I've been thinking,
After my school life,
Which is pretty much my whole life now,
And which i'm not proud of,
What would life be like?
Well,
Only Time will tell.
All this(life) is gonna be over,
Sooner than you realise.
So dudes,
Cherish every minute of your short life man.
Wow,
So much to say,
Dunno how to say.
If only someone really understands me.
Never mind,
I have myself.

END.8.54pm.

2007-09-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

Sigh.
Life's pretty normal recently.
Which is good,and not so good.
Good is,nothing very bad happen.
Not good is,nothing very good happen.
and i don't request for good thing to happen,
No bad thing will do.
Holidays are.....
45 days away!
Great.
A break then,
O'levels next year.
Oh,lets just stop talking about o levels.
It was pretty breezy this weekend,
Especially at night,
But i didn't go out much at night.
Wasted.
Looking forward to holidays!

Currently have many things to say,
But donno how to say.
Hate the feeling.

END.11.30pm.

2007-09-16T11:42:00.000+08:00

Hi.
Yesterday went study with Elton,Shin,Min.
And i actually forgot to call Jun Liang along.
What was i thinking.
Really sorry,Jun liang
Studied from 2 to 4.30.
While we were studying,
There was 1 kitten who keep come and find us.
So interesting.
He slept on 1 of the chairs while we were studying.
It even came on the table!
After studying,
Went out to JP.
My hair sucks.(didn't cut at JP,cut a Yishun)
Still say what professional.
KNS!!!!
Exam starting soon,
Which means its ending soon!

END.11.48am.

2007-09-09T23:32:00.000+08:00

Sighs.
School resumes tomorrow.
Time is really fast.
Hate it.
Remember National Day.
August 9.
1 month to Genting trip.
And a week's holiday.
Now?
School's resuming.
In a blink of an eye,I would be staring at O's levels.
Another blink,i would be serving the nation.
Another blink?
Looking at my sheet-like white hair.
Damn it.
Sometimes things never go the way you want.
But when they do,
They may last long,
But you will always be moaning how short it was.
The things you want to happen may not happen,
And the things that are happening,
Aren't what you want to happen.
Greediness can cost you,
When you are overcomed by it.
Always think before you do.
Even when things are in your hands,
Your decision may not always turn out well.
Its only when you have made the decision that you will realise,
Its not what you really wanted.
But all this is Life.
Things will never last forever,
Things that happen may not always be what you want to happen,
And things will never go your way always.
You just have to ADAPT.
And,
That's what we do,
Always.
But you never realise you've been adapting yourself to things,
Until it gets tough.
That when you will moan,
And ponder why Life is so tough.
But,
You never realise the good things that happen,
Because you think good things should happen.
And that its normal to have good things happen,
But bad things should never happen.
But remember;
Its the bad things that make good things good.

Will reflect and post my reflections again.

END.11:54pm.

2007-09-06T18:54:00.000+08:00

Just came back from Genting yesterday.
Loved it there!
The weather was great.
So cool.
Strong and Cold wind.
Misty too.
Perfect!
Absolutely miss it.
Took an indoor coaster,ferris wheel,Archery,
And went Ripley's Believe It Or Not! gallery.
Great.
Caught Ratatouille(i spelled this myself)
Spent most of my time with my cousin in the arcade,
Ate Marry Brown twice(only available in M'sia and superb)
Ate a buffet on the second night.
In a blink of an eye,
3 days there have passed.
Time really is fast.
Hate it.
Good things must come to an end,
But why so quick man?
Sucks.
Really damn fast.
So sian back here in Singapore.
Kns.
Maybe because i've spent 15 years here.
hope to go back Genting soon.
The weather there really lifts moods.
Hope Climate Change won't affect it!
Come on,Save the Earth,people!

END.

2007-08-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

Long time since last post.
Blog was rotting so decided to come check it.
Nothing much to say,
Gong Genting next Monday(WOOTS~)
Training myself up recently,
Keep Fit!

My feelings are lost.
And i don't feel like recovering them.

END.7.44pm.Lights Out and not missing you that much.

2007-08-19T03:27:00.000+08:00

Had fun days yesterday and the day before yesterday(take note today is SUNDAY)
Yesterday was Hui Min's birthday(Happy Birthday girl!)
Had a fun celebration at Xin Yi's house.
Ate spaghetti,drank two breezers,1 and a half Q's.
In case u don't know what that is,v*dka.
i left at 2.30 am and cabbed home to reach at 3am.
Slept then woke up today at 11am(becoz of my noisy sis!)
Ate then slept again till 3pm.
Woke up and go eat again.
Then went to National Day Celebrations at Taman Jurong with The Clones.
Then met Kim and Pei Ying to catch up on old times.
Long time since we 3 had a chat.
Chatted till 2,
Sent both of them home,
I came home,
Showered,
And wrote this.
To me,what i written on top isn't blogging.
That's Diarying.
To me,blogging is to show your feelings.
The below,are feelings.

So near yet so far.
I do want to tell you,
But its always so difficult.

End.3.47am.Lights out and missing You.

2007-08-14T22:58:00.000+08:00

Normal day.
Leg swell is totally gone.
Lucky.
A new weight has just landed on my shoulder.
Private,though.
This is gonna get me,big time.
Hopefully they don't do anything to get me into any trouble,
Which was never caused by me.
I have nothing to do with them now.
Just 1 damn photo.
Got me caught in the middle.
I wanna wipe this damn weight of my shoulder.
I deeply regret,
What I've Done.
"A moment of folly can bring you great regret."-Chee Kiat(some famous person???)

End.11.07pm.Lights out and missing You.

2007-08-12T22:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i was handicapped.
Didn't know a mosquito bite could swell my leg like,hell?
Then i remembered;
At the prawning pond,
We use chicken heart as bait.
We have to cut them into small pieces.
With our bare hands and a blade,of course.
And,mosquito bite are itchy right?
Then i have to use my hands to cut the chicken heart right?
Then mosquito bite itchy will go scratch right?
Then will scratch with hands right?
Then my hands got chicken blood because chicken heart got blood right?
Then if too itchy scratch too much the skin will tear right?
The skin tear will expose flesh right?
Then the dunno whether clean or not chicken blood will go inside my body through the wound right?
I think thats what caused the huge swell.
I had fears that it may be an infection.
Or some bacterial disease.
Skali the chicken got avian flu how?
Worse,skali i have to amputate my leg.
I'd rather die if that had to happen.
Luckily,the swell seems to be unswelling.(???)
See how it goes,maybe still have to go see doctor.
Haiz.
What a unusually quiet National Day holiday i had.
I caught only a part of the NDP on tv.
No friend outings during the long weekend.
The only progran was prawning.
With my cousin.
Not bad,too.
Combined total of 5 hours of prawning:42 prawns
Plus previous day total:60+ prawns.
They include the ones caught by my cousin,too.
That was the past few days.
Today?
Uneventful.
Stayed at home the whole day.
The only thing to look forward to was the Man Utd match,which just started at 10.55pm.
Okay.gonna go watch my Man U match.
Bye,dudes.

END.11.16pm.Lights Out and missing You.

2007-08-09T00:33:00.000+08:00

Watched Jay Chou's Secret with Elton,Jia qi,Gary n Junliang.
Superb Movie.
Three Thumbs Up.
The Movie made me feel being in love is so 幸福.....
Great Great Movie.....
Touching....
Hope i can watch again...
but with "her"...
Happy National Day!
Haiz,feel so vexed....
Dunno what to write...

END.

2007-08-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

Haiz.
National Day is approaching.
Wednesday will be a half day.
Powder!
Nth to write....
Lazy.....
Haha....
Heehee....
Kkz.
Nth to write.

END.

2007-08-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

Went back to school todae after a day's mc.
Had high fever.
Still abit blur blur now.
Managed to finish geog assignment and hand in.
Hope i will recover soon!
It sucks to be sick.

END.

2007-07-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

Quite fun day because of the IPP.
Played basketball during PE.
That was school.
Maths test on radian tomorrow(postponed).
Oral Exam tomorrow too.
Stress.
Monday Blues over!
Hoorah.
Had a great nap(raining).
Chiong-ing Geography project before i sleep.

END.